You would never know what is gonna happen next second in the life. It is just like a battle. You have to be ready to fight all the time because trouble can visit you any minute.

When I was a child, I often had such confusion that why I have to face the thing I really hate. However it was easier during childhood because I can turn to my parent who could be my hero at that moment. I even could give up for there is no big deal for a kid.As time goes by, I am grown up, which means that I am supposed to handle the problem I meet independently even though it is really tough. Every time I go through every rainy day, I feel I step forward with a big one in my culture. Probably that is the real life where no one can be your hero except yourself.

Anna has got a great job in Germany which means she is gonna leave China soon. Now I start to realize how far we would be from each other. I almost lost one of my best friends. It is really really bad news for me.

Anna is such a special women who is pretty, generous, smart, and above all funny. I taught her Chinese last winter and we became friends since then. It was truly great time we spent together. We had a lot common topics and I learnt from our talking because Anna ‘s way to think is totally different from me. We share our opinions on history, politics, society and our own stories. We went to Music Man to listen to music and drink beer. After class we sometimes went out for a lunch. Even after we have all of the class done, when I went to Beijing to take the training of TOEFL, we still spared some time go to have a dinner together. Wow, I can not believe all of those about Anna would become history. I am gonna miss her so much.

God bless ! May be we could run into each other somewhere before her departure.

有时候想起来会觉得一路走来好辛苦。需要自己做的事情好多，而且有些事情即使努力了也不定能做好。

我一直在努力，不是吗？

努力考大学，努力考研，努力学外语，努力看专业，努力经营自己的生活和前途……

可是这一切又是什么呢？又意味着什么呢？

困惑无处不在……

从小就是一个向前看的孩子，这是妈妈告诉我的，可我的路为什么有那么多荆棘需要去清理？有时候真觉得好累，真的想停在这里就好了……

在这样一个花花世界里，有太多的诱惑，有太多的纷扰，有太多的晦涩和模糊……

现在突然理解为什么李商隐的诗总是看不懂了，其实有的时候自己想说什么都开不懂。

根源是：生活，我永远不懂……

不喜欢这种消极的调子，可是却挥之不去……

胸前画一个十字，轻轻地默念：

God bless me！

It is simply ironic that I rarely wrote something here since I was interviewed by Anna on the blog story. How time flies! More than a month has passed and what have been doing? It is really a great question. Reading, collecting and analyzing the materials of my dissertation, outlining it, practicing English, sleeping and eating, all of those are my life which I lead recently. How good is it? Totally occupied by these fucking stuff, I am not able to afford the time to chat with my friend, to clean my dorm, to get around for relaxing, to do anything which can make my life colorful even a tiny joy. The life is so plain and boring and it will go on because I have not finish my dissertation and shit TOEFL. Everything seems to be urgent except the real life. And the funny question is what’s the real life.

好久没有在这里好好写东西了。

这些日子过得忙碌而空白。

总觉得生活少了些什么，可是少什么呢？

也许是西安阴沉的日子太多了。我的生活需要阳光。

It is such a beautiful day today. The fresh air, the blue sky and the sunshine which seems to be stolen from heaven, all of them could make you  just want to fly. Yeah，maybe at this time here is the heaven: Couples walk into the canteen hand in hand, pretty girls talk on the way of classrooms, and the guy who is on the bike whistles when biking by a good looking. The campus is full of energy and bloom of youth. No matter where you go, human being is always the best part of the picture.I can't see any reason people do not love their lives.

My dorm which is full of three guys now is out of water today.

If any tiny part goes wrong in the dorm, for instance the water, the power or the network, it would be a disaster in some sense. My roommate has to go to our neighbor to wash face and my friend and I also get water from Chen Yong’s room. Even up to now, I have not washed my face.……

Dear God!

Life is an endless story.